30 Day Update!

I'll go ahead and post the video first and you can watch it. Yes you CAN! And you should definitely watch it to see me do the Bernie sort of lol.

 

So The first 30 Days weren't great, but in the end I am better off than when I started, which is the best thing ever. I'm really trying to pull it together more so that when I'm doing my 60 Day update video and pictures, there will be such a difference, that people everywhere will drop what they are doing and do either yoga or the Bernie! Truly, I would be happy with both...

So make sure you keep it up, because even though I sucked this month, what little I did actually paid off. Imagine what the difference would be if I had rocked it like I'm going to ROCK it the next 30 days. Let's go people! I'm coming out of hibernation! Watch out!

Un-expectations

My expectations when it came to this past Friday's freaky challenge were pretty much, "Not able to do it, but I'll attempt it anyway." Of course, with the recent funk I ended up not attempting at all. However, with my recent determination to just get up and go and not think about it, as well as other people's attempts, led me to attempting it today! Took me forever to edit because I ended up throwing in some other footage I had, because I haven't done an update video in forever! Then the publishing of the movie and uploading to YouTube itself takes literally hours! But it's all worth it to share and help remain accountable.

So without further ado:

I plan on taking my 30 day pics and updating everything even though I've completely failed these first 30 days and will have little to no improvement, but it's all about accountability. The next 30 will be awesome!

I'm still here...

... Just not how I want to be. This week has been a little hectic, but pretty enjoyable. Did Fat Burner on Monday (yay!), then volleyball on Tuesday (could have used more energy, but felt very distracted for some reason), and Wednesday I walked around a zoo and was in a pool. I suppose I could have put in a workout some how, but I left early in the morning and passed out after dinner. Thursday and Friday hold no excuses. I just didn't do anything (that I can remember). Today I woke up late and the family went into the city to watch a baseball game. No exercise there, just veggie burgers for me, tons of starch, and beer. Not a huge beer drinker, but I did partake tonight.

I really am trying with the roadblock destruction, but it's more difficult than I thought. I suppose if I were to be honest I could try a whole lot harder. Maybe that's my problem, I just keep trying and not doing when I know I can. Do you know what? I was going to sit here and type about how tomorrow would be better, how tomorrow I would sit down and figure things out, how I'm tired now and it's after midnight, and how I would get back to the DDPYoga workouts tomorrow... There's my problem: I'm a tomorrower. When I started this journey I said TODAY! Somewhere after that first week, that changed. I don't want to do that anymore. Besides now that's it's after midnight, it's tomorrow anyway!

So after I post this, I'm getting up and doing a routine. Why? Because I can! But before I do that, I really want to think those that have reached out to me. I really do appreciate it. As I wrote to one of those people today I told them that I usually just fly under people's radars, which is actually very convenient in a lost of cases, but in this case it can make this journey harder. It's nice to know that you aren't alone. So thanks! Everyone keep on vlogging and blogging and keep on with yoga-ing too!

Okay DDP you are about to be somewhere you haven't been in awhile: my dvd player!

: )

Road Blocks

I love photography. I always have. I'm also very strange. I always have been. My two favorite things to take pictures of (other than my cat Mia of course) are clouds and road construction. Clouds are a normal thing I suppose, but I know you don't normally get your kicks by taking pictures of road construction. Don't believe me?:

What does all of this have to do with my journey? Other than being a part of me and, by proxy, a part of this journey.... I'm starting to build what I once took pictures of:  road blocks.

• I need to eat better: <insert road block 1>
• I need to get up and do DDPYoga: <insert road block 2>
• I need to keep in contact with those that support me and and know and believe in what I'm trying to do: <insert road block 3>

</insertion of road blocks>

I'm done. I just want to take pictures of them; I don't want to build them. From now on I want to take pictures of them and know what I accomplished. I want them to be a symbol for me and not a hindrance. I need to develop some serious willpower as I have finally discovered and admitted to myself that I lack in that department.

Time to get up and go.

I CAN.

Week 2 Update

I apologize for putting this up late. It seems against my wishes I am still in a bit of a funk. I know that if I do some DDPYoga I will feel much better. Anyway, here is the video that I put up on ye ole YouTube for the update. Everything relevant is pretty much in there. I gained 2 lbs back. I guess I'm lucky it wasn't more, but I know I am going in the completely wrong direction now and that will change. I CAN do this.

Jack Knife and WTH

Technically, it's Saturday, but really it's still Friday for me and I'm not the best. I did the Freaky Friday Challenge for the YouTube Yoga Freaks on Team DDPYoga, which is featured below:



Other than that, I am in a funk, am slightly depressed, and will hopefully be better when I wake. Thank you to the one person on Team DDPYoga that randomly heard me and was trying to help. I really do appreciate it : )

Finding Motivation.... or Not

I'm having a hard week. It started out great on Monday morning with my weigh-in (which showed a 7lb loss!) and then quickly went down hill from there. I procrastinated so hard about getting my DDPYoga on that day, but I did end up doing Fatburner. I did notice in my lower back that I was experiencing some soreness or slight pain/tightness. Not sure how to describe it, but given that I injured my lower back a couple months ago (not sure what happened just that I was in some serious pain and limited mobility for a couple of days) I wanted to be careful.

On Tuesday I knew I had volleyball that night, but I debated doing DDPYoga beforehand. I decided for my back's sake that I would just to volleyball and I certainly sweated enough during it to make me feel better. Wednesday I decided to take it easy and figured the next day I would do better.... Well it's the next day and no better. I still feel just tired and somewhat down. My lower back feels better, but still a little tight. I should be good to go for some less challenging DDPYoga, but here I sit...

I would say I still feel okay because I did so great last week and did a whole lot more the the schedule in the program has you doing. I would say that... if I had been eating better as well. That hasn't really happened either. I still think I eating a lot better that I was before I started this journey and started getting my DDPYoga on, but I could and should be doing do much better. I want to believe it's because of this little Funk I'm in, but maybe that would just be wishful thinking?

I will say one of the triggers for food is that I'm really unsure of what to eat most of the time and it can easily frustrate me into just eating what we have and trying my best to just eat a proper portion of it. I just wish I could dump our house and restock it with healthy organic everything and some gluten-free (which I'm having doubts about again) and some dairy-free options. Alas, this is not possible and I have to work on just buying for myself here and there. I did discover that we randomly have a box of gluten-free pancake and waffle mix so I will try to get up and make those (maybe with video?!) for a video.

Don't worry yall, I'm not down for the count. I know tomorrow I will be doing my Freaky Friday Challenge for YouTube Yoga Freaks at TeamDDPYoga.com and while that uploads (and because I have a crappy laptop that easily overheats so I cant use it while anything is uploading) I an do a super-awesome, double-header DDPYoga workout session! The same goes for Saturday and Sunday as well. Just because I made some poor decisions doesn't mean that I have to continue doing that.

Here's to the ups and downs! I will say that blogging about this helps because I can get thoughts out that I wasn't able to fully construct in my head with everything else running wild in there and it helps me remember things and have ideas that re-inspire me to continue this journey. I definitely recommend joing me in this blogging/vlogging journey!