Weight Update

Woke up super late, but I think it had something to do with getting woken up so many times during the night. But I did weigh myself and it says 223, which means I've now lost a total of 12 pounds. I think that's due mostly to my doing energy everyday for past couple of days and my lack of appetite. Don't know if I will do Energy today, since I have volleyball. I suppose it depends if I get up shortly and do it. Don't really feel like doing volleyball to be honest. Afraid of my left side still, but I'll go anyway. I don't see the weight loss yet, so I'm almost thinking my scale has made a mistake, but I suppose that is just silly.

Re-energize Kat

Not much to say. Did Energy again. Thought about doing Fat Burner instead, but decided just to stick with Energy. If feeling better tomorrow then I might try Fat Burner or Energy w/ RHC. Feeling better, left arm is just tired a little and woke up bad, but that actually has a reason. It's hard to wake up and have someone ask something of you when you aren't even awake yet and have problems of your own that they aren't even bothering to notice. People... Anyway, still worried, but hanging in there. Getting my appetite back , but don't want to start overeating or anything. Still drinking mostly water. Okay.

Energy Day 3

My last post had me up through the night since 11:30pm last night. It was around 6am when I went and laid down again. It took awhile, but I managed to go to sleep. Woke up around 11am. I was so groggy. Honestly I laid back down, because it felt better to lay down and I still felt so tired. I made myself get up. Then I wanted to take a shower, but thought that I should do DDPYoga first. Otherwise I wouldn't want to do it after I showered. So did Energy again for the same reasons I've done it the past two days. Feel better doing it (although the broken table is a little harder on my left side now) and especially right after I feel better.

I ate some leftovers, that I didn't finish (noticed my appetite has changed and I don't eat much. but it's better than it was a couple days ago) and then sat down to finally go through all my papers I accumulated in college, at least from this last year or two. I had trouble concentrating and felt groggy or heavy-headed. I was wondering if it was some medicine I took even though it says it has caffeine in it. Took a break, paced a bit, drank some water, laid down, rinse and repeat. Started feeling better so went through more papers. Took a long time and still not finished with that stuff, but it kept me doing something which helps. 

So all in all, still some discomfort, but it was better today and I kept busy. Still worried, but hopefully it is just turning out to be anxiety/hormones and because I was being too inactive over the past couple of weeks. I'm going to see how it goes this week and depending on how I'm feeling I might schedule to go in and see someone. If I'm worse it's for certain. If I feel better than I might go anyway if I'm feeling confident enough. I just know it's something I really need to do. I want to continue doing some work out everyday for the time being, even if it is just Energy. It's something and it's a whole lot better than nothing. It makes me feel like I'm being more proactive. I still have those moments where I feel like it's too late and my body gave up on me, but I'm doing my best to go forward. 

I hope to go to bed at a decent hour and NOT wake up until at least 7 or 8. The 2-4am wake up and then go back to sleep around 6-7 crap needs to stop. And hopefully no more sleeping all day. Still have no idea what that was about yesterday.

Thanks to those who are keeping up with me! I love and appreciate yall : )

Discomfort and Sleepiness

Did Energy again today. Felt it was safe to do since it's not too strenuous and not too long. Still experiencing discomfort in left chest and arm. Probably need to see someone about it. I know I am young, but being unhealthy for so many years and having heart issues run in family, it might be something to worry about. Which is why I am afraid to go of course. I'm just having a hard time explaining this away with anxiety or hormones. I think I might talk to my mom tomorrow and if I am no better then see where I can go in.

Also, I think I've screwed up my sleep schedule again. I had woken up around 4am and couldn't go back to sleep. I got up and ate and sat at the computer for the bit and around 6:45 managed to lay back down and go to sleep. Couldn't get up again until around 12. Got up and ate a sandwich and while everyone went to town I did yoga. Not too sure what time it was when I went and laid down in my mom's room. Just remember waking up after 5pm. Then I walked into my room and went to sleep in my bed. Why? I don't really know. I just woke up again around 11:30 pm I wanted to go back to sleep because I really didn't want to mess up my schedule. But I had only that one sandwich to eat. Still haven't eaten. I'm having issues with my appetite and what to eat. So I'm going to eat and then hopefully lay back down in the next couple of hours to see if I can't sleep a little more. It's doubtful because I pretty much slept all day.

I had wanted to post something different early and almost did, but I always stop myself from posting. Guess I will post this one though.

Energy!

Did energy today. Huge step forward for me. I've had a bad couple of days. Actually for the past couple of weeks I've felt myself deteriorating, and then around Wednesday I've just gone downhill. That night was horrible, fought like hell to stop from going into a full panic attack. But I've been feeling these weird symptoms and they are all on the left side so it's scary. Thing is I can't tell anymore whether it's just form the anxiety, stress stuff or it's something else and it's causing my anxiety or stress. The chicken or the egg sort of situation.

I stayed up all day yesterday to switch my schedule around, so that I can sleep at night and be up during the day. I felt horrible, achy, anxious all day and couldn't eat a lot. I couldn't take it anymore and went to sleep around 6pm. I woke up a little after 2am, used the bathroom and tried my best to go back to sleep. Didn't happen though. Tried three times. Finally around 7:45-8 I didn't even think I was going to be able to, but I fell asleep after trying again. I got woken up at 10, so that I could still be up during the day and be able to sleep tonight. At first I felt fine, but I still just have an uneasy, sick feeling in my chest and my arm feels a little weird when I stretch my arm fully and rotate it a little.

I decided to go ahead and do some yoga, even if I couldn't do it to the full extent. I did Energy and am glad I did. While I was doing it I felt better and for a bit after I felt better too, but as I sit here writing this, I still feel weird. I know what I should do and need to do, but what happens when you are terrified of doing it? For now I will continue doing yoga in hopes that it's just a mental thing and that I've just been sitting around too long. This was the whole reason I started doing DDPYoga in the first place. I feel like I failed a second chance or something and am afraid I won't get a third.

Oh and I had a post up Wednesday about this challenge I wanted to do for myself, but then a couple of hours later when I turned bad, I took it down. Hopefully I will be able to put it back up tomorrow and will be able to tackle it for the next 20 days.

Sleepness

Nothing too much to update, but I do want to start writing more blog posts. As I mentioned before, I feel like I'm getting in the habit of posting one when I do vlog updates. I think I'm getting lazy all around, because I've just been doing the Freaky Friday Challenges for the vlogs as well. This isn't going to work if I don't do anything I set out to do.

I've super tired a lot and I realize the weird symptoms and anxiety is returning. Haven't had a full blown panic attack again, but I really thought I was on my way to have one last night. Oh and by 'last night' I mean around 5 or 6 this morning. I am back on, what my friend calls, 'vampire hours.' I've always been pretty nocturnal though. Anytime I manage to switch my sleep schedule to more 'normal' hours, it lasts about a week. Even at school or when I worked, the hour I went to sleep became later and later. This led to me being very tired in class or at work. Not cool.

I think regardless of what my schedule is I need to set up a certain time that I do my DDPYoga workouts. Almost like an appointment I have to keep, so no matter what my schedule is I have to get up for it. I'm thinking that this might help me form the habit, so that when I'm not motivated for it (which I'm having a serious problem with) I will do it anyway.

Crocodile!

I think I need to start blogging more. I don't want this to just be a place to put my vlogs, but lately it seems that's what I've been doing. I'll start blogging more, but for now I am going to put my Freaky Friday Challenge up. It's a bit late, because it takes me forever to get the things uploaded and the challenge was set a bit late, but it's up and that's the important thing. I cannot hold a modified crocodile long, but Mia definitely made the video worth it! She is so funny! I crocodile is basically holding a pushup in the down position (about 3 or so inches from the ground). I do it on my knees, because that's about all I can do right now and not for long. Everyone's got to start somewhere!