Thursday, September 26, 2013

Health Update

I seriously haven't blogged in 10 days? I apologize! Can't believe it's been that long. I've slipped on the exercise and tracking food thing again. I am still not out of the 220s and it sucks cause I was really close a few weeks ago.

Had my doctor's appointment today. I weighed in at 226 there. Of course I had on heavy pants, but that's still a lot. I am definitely going in the wrong direction. Do NOT like seeing the obesity stuff attached to my stuff there. But I had a physical and talked about my concerns with her and she said everything was normal, so I guess a lot of it is in my head. On another note, I started taking a multivitamin on Friday and two days later I got a cold. Life loves me! Now I'm at that lovely stage where I start coughing stuff up.

She of course wants me to lose weight, but I think I brought that up before she did. She talked about steps that I need to be doing. The problem is I kinda of know everything she mentioned and the real problem I have is motivation and keeping with it. She started talking about her own motivation for exercise issues (btw she's tiny) and it's a little hard to concentrate of what she was says when she was giving me a breast exam at the same time.

Basically, I didn't really get anything out of going in except an overdo physical. How is it I have felt like shit for months, but I'm healthy except for the obese thing? How does that work exactly?

Diagnoses: lose weight. No shit Sherlock.

I actually like the doctor though, not get me wrong. I just get frustrated when even doctors, who are supposed to help, can't.

In the end it really is up to you and you alone. Guess that means I need to get back at it. Might be going to visit my college in a week or so and would like to feel a little better. A 1-2 pound loss before then would really make me feel better!

Hope everyone is doing well!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Dancing in the dark

So I can't dance. I mean, not really. Sometimes, though, you just want to move to music that speaks to you. When that happens, you wait till the middle of the night when everyone else is asleep, you turn off your lights, put your earbuds in your ear and sway away... Not only is it stress relieving and a form of expression, it's also a great little exercise. For 20 minutes last night it was my exercise. I had planned getting on the treadmill again, but it got later and I didn't want the noise to mess with anybody.

Still doing okay with food and everything. I've gotten in the habit of eating a banana when I get up and a snack an hour or two before bed. I'm trying to eat about every 3-4 hours. Of course, my sleep is messed up again. I had an opportunity to get up this morning (my alarm went of and I had to use the bathroom and I was awake enough after to have stayed up), but I didn't. Decided sleep felt better than being up. Still need to get over that. It's always been funny to me that as hard as it is for me to get to sleep, sometimes I am perfectly content to sleep as long as I possibly can. Maybe subconsciously I'm afraid I won't get any for awhile. Who knows?

So today is my Day #3 and I should probably get my exercise over with sooner rather than later. I'll have to do it early tomorrow too, since around 3 I will heading off with a friend to play pool for her team (I suck at it by the way) and then spending the night, since it's in a different town. Although I can always suggest we go on a walk. I know she wants to exercise too. But I'll do something before just in case. Maybe actually get on the treadmill today and tomorrow DDPYoga? That sounds good to me.

I might not get a post up everyday (mostly cause I forget or the off chance I have nothing to say), but I will try to keep getting one up every other day at least. I want to keep up with everyone as well, so I'll try and be better about commenting on others posts! (I really to read them, but I've gotten lazy : ( )

Saturday, September 14, 2013

10 days

So what am I up to these days? Well I've jumped on board with my friend Zulmarie and her great idea: #10daysoffitness. Make sure to head over and check it out if you haven't already. What is it? It's basically a repeating challenge that never gets boring, because you control it! Remember my 20-day challenge? Well i loved it because it made me exercise even when i didn't want to, which I'm the better for, but it also felt like it drug on in the end. That's why 10 days is perfect. 10 days of fitness, that I choose, and then 1-2 days off. Then back at it. I get the challenge, but also the freedom and less stress aspects. It's great!

Actually I am going to be a guest blogger over there, so there is your added incentive! As if you don't get more than enough of me over here! Click here to be directed to the article where I am introduced as a guest blogger! I will try not to be too repetitive with the two posts, but I won't be blogging there everyday or anything, so it should be okay. The main blogger, Zulmarie, is an awesome blogger by the way, make sure to read some of these past posts for some great motivation:

DONE with day #2


But today was my Day #1, for #10days, and I am so glad to be back doing a challenge again. I can always feel myself slipping when I take too long of a break and I am sure no one wants to see me back in another funk! My personal plan for the #10days is to do 30 minutes (at least 20 is recommended!) and incorporate DDPYoga as well as other traditional exercises. I still love doing DDPYoga, but sometimes I just want to walk on the treadmill and listen to music you know? So that's what I did today; 30 minutes on the treadmill and I kept it between 3.0-3.5 mph, except the last 3 minutes or so to cool down. Felt great!

I think this may be the key for me. I need the challenge for the motivation to keep going and the sense of satisfaction finishing it brings. That's what #10daysoffitness is for me! I think this is going to go places and I am so thrilled to be involved. So hope this wasn't too commercially for anyone, but I really wanted to give it a go and try to explain what it means for me.



Friday, September 13, 2013

Goodbye to the few

No no! I'm not going anywhere. I lost 1.6 lbs this week, so i was just saying goodbye to those horrid little bastards. I realized after typing the title, those few who actually read this may think I've decided to say goodbye to the ole blogging life. Unfortunately for y'all, I'm not going anywhere. I may not type as much since I finished my 20 day challenge, but I got a lot more to do and a lot more to say.

I haven't exercised since Friday, which was the last day of my 20-day challenge. So, it begs the question, how? I have no clue other than I have been eating pretty well since Tuesday anyway. I mean I did alright the days before that too, but it was my brother's birthday on Monday and I had a little piece of cake and I don't know what was in it but everyone was so tired afterward. My brother went to bed immediately and I was only an hour or so behind him. I went to sleep probably around 6 or 7 and I woke up at 1 am. I was super thirsty, my throat is so dry these days when I wake up. I grabbed a bottle of water, took a couple of sips, and went to the bathroom. By the time I was done in there I was suddenly extremely hungry and I felt a little shaky and more than a little anxious. I ate a roll leftover from dinner, but that didn't seem to help. Started on another roll and looked up the symptoms on the internet. Hypoglycemia, low blood sugar is what stared back at me. Need sugar, it said. We had one banana left, so I ate that. Started to feel better pretty soon after. After about another 2 or 3 hours, I laid back down and went to sleep. It wasn't good sleep, it hasn't been good since either. Scary. The next two days.... well to be honest I'm still worried about it, but those two days directly after were anxiety ridden.

Needless to say, that was the last straw for me. I finally have broken down and set up a physical at the doctors. Don't want to and terrified (as usual). I know that this anxiety/panic stuff has turned me into a little hypochondriac (to be honest I think I may have had the tendency since I was a kid, but have never said anything), but at some point reality sets in and you can't explain away every symptom with stress. I know something is wrong, I'm just hoping it's something I can manage and clear up with what I've been trying to do. Worse case scenario: it's something not so easy to fix. Not that eating right and exercising after a lifetime of not is easy. It's just that in the end, all it takes is me getting up and doing, instead of sitting and not. I can do this. I can and I will. I just don't want my body to give up on me. I've never gave up on it... I just haven't been very nice to it. I repent! Just be okay.... please. See? I even ask nicely.

So on the 26th you'll find me at the doc's, sweating buckets and trying not to have a fit. After that.... hopefully filling a prescription or following doc's orders for diet and exercise. 

Don't mean to be a Debby Downer or morbid or worry anybody. I'm really okay right now. I just want to be okay for more than just now. I want to feel healthy for once, instead of afraid and iffy all the time. I know I'm not the only one either.

So here's to our health! It's what's we are all working for anyway.


Sunday, September 8, 2013

Where?

Why did I not really record here today? To be honest, this is very much an afterthought. I have enjoyed the day of freedom after 20 days. I know I will soon enter another obligation soon, so I suppose I am very conscious of that notion.

I'm not sure what to write today. After all, I did not do yoga or exercise.... Should I feel ashamed or lenient? I do not think so. i am human after all and to human  is to err... is that not so?

I did a video for the end of my challenge:


Alhtough 222.3-223.2 does not equal a gain of 1.1, but still it's a gain and I am going in ths wrong direction. SO Need to do better. more on that next post.


Friday, September 6, 2013

25 Years Ago (Day 20 of 20)

25 years ago today, something cataclysmic occurred. That event, ladies and gentlemen, was my birth. YES, I, Katarina, came forth from my mother with a mission at the forefront of my still developing brain. That mission.... was to waste no time in conquering all that was in my power to grasp...

Fast forward to today and you find me 25 years old (a quarter of a century) and having wasted plenty of time conquering some, but nothing that quenches my thirst. I itch for adventure and wisdom, but unlike those pesky diseases of today, there is no simple pill to cure my ailment. NO... I must conquer my own mind before the world may even be considered a conquest. My mind... and my body...

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Okay so I'm nuts and I have an overactive imagination. If I were rich, they would call me eccentric. Alas, I am not.

Today was the last day of my 20 day challenge. The verdict: I GAINED 1.1 lbs instead of losing the 8 pounds I wanted to lose. Didn't think it was realistic to lose 8 lbs in 20 days, but the goal was to get as close as possible. Did not want what actually did happen. BUT, it's not like I'm giving up. I shall prevail. After all, I have a lot of things to conquer right?

Just to recap my day for those who are interested (By the way, I decided not to care about it today)-

I woke up at 11:something.
Opened a bottle of Pink Moscato bubbly deliciousness, cause time didn't exist today.
Opened a couple of cards and a few presents (also answering good wishes online!)
Went out to lunch with my mother to a place I had wanted to go for awhile and, as I suspected, delicious!
Then back home to spend time doing arts and crafts creating a bday card for someone else (FUN!).
Then to the movies with one of my brothers.
Then home to pizza, a movie, and my favorite Irish whiskey.

Now... you are wondering if I spared a moment to finish the 20 day challenge with Yoga..... the simple answer is: Yes. I did. I did Wake Up though, which IS a DDPYoga program, but is not to really be considered a workout for me by any means. It was, however, a very good stretch and beneficial for my health in some respect. I'm also not worrying about my calories today , but I will go back tomorrow and figure it out, just so I can keep the 30 days for that going.

For anyone wondering, I don't like my birthday, which is why I haven't mentioned it. I don't expect people to remember as I barely remember anybody's myself.  I never really do well on my birthday. I usually blow up at some point and have a fit. I expect it's the attention or the ever looming fact of mortality. Anyway, today wasn't all that bad. Wish my dad didn't have to go to drill this weekend. After all these years, I should be used to it. I suppose I wish he would have woken me up and said something before leaving early this morning. Maybe it's just the fact that after three years of celebrating it at school (one by myself and two with a friend), it would have been nice to try again all together. Maybe next year.... that is if I'm not off conquering something!

Thank you to all that have kept with me through this challenge and I expect that will continue to keep with me through this journey. I love you.

20 Day Challenge_____________
Day 1 (8/18/13): Fat Burner
Day 2 (8/19/13): Energy
Day 3 (8/20/13): Red Hot Core (and volleyball!)
Day 4 (8/21/13): Energy
Day 5 (8/22/13): Energy + Red Hot Core (and burpees + treadmill)
Day 6 (8/23/13): Red Hot Core
Day 7 (8/24/13): Diamond Cutter + Red Hot Core
Day 8 (8/25/13): Below the Belt + Red Hot Core
Day 9 (8/26/13): Mix Tape + Red Hot Core
Day 10 (8/27/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 11 (8/28/13): Fat Burner + Red Hot Core
Day 12 (8/29/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 13 (8/30/13): Red Hot Core
Day 14 (8/31/13): Energy
Day 15 (9/1/13): Stand Up
Day 16 (9/2/13): Fat Burner
Day 17 (9/3/13): Red Hot Core
Day 18 (9/4/13): Energy
Day 19 (9/5/13): Red Hot Core
Day 20 (9/6/13): Wake Up

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Penultimate (Day 19 of 20)

Almost there and the closer I get the lazier I get. I know doing yoga the past 19 days doesn't make me lazy, but I'm steadily getting more reluctant to do yoga and I'm back to doing the easier ones, even though I had actually planned on doing the longer workouts and really doing well this week. I don't like this week so I really wanted to kick it's butt, but it seems to have a bigger bite than I do these days.

Case in point: I'm going to do Red Hot Core. I don't even care. Oh and I've gained this week. I'm going to do the official weigh-in tomorrow since it's the end of the challenge. It just sucks I wanted to lose weight these 20 days and I've actually managed to gain. Well, it's a tough job, but somebody's got to do it. I'm going to do yoga tomorrow anyway and finish my challenge and then I'm not going to give a shit the rest of the day (although I do have a good excuse). Still tracking though! My goal is to really stick to my calories next week!!!

Not going to let this get me too down, even though it's hard not to. I'm going in the wrong direction! Going to do a new challenge, but more about that later. For now, I hope you are doing better than me and still keeping it in there!!! I'm still confident we can all whoop this and get our goals straight in the face : )


20 Day Challenge_____________
Day 1 (8/18/13): Fat Burner
Day 2 (8/19/13): Energy
Day 3 (8/20/13): Red Hot Core (and volleyball!)
Day 4 (8/21/13): Energy
Day 5 (8/22/13): Energy + Red Hot Core (and burpees + treadmill)
Day 6 (8/23/13): Red Hot Core
Day 7 (8/24/13): Diamond Cutter + Red Hot Core
Day 8 (8/25/13): Below the Belt + Red Hot Core
Day 9 (8/26/13): Mix Tape + Red Hot Core
Day 10 (8/27/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 11 (8/28/13): Fat Burner + Red Hot Core
Day 12 (8/29/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 13 (8/30/13): Red Hot Core
Day 14 (8/31/13): Energy
Day 15 (9/1/13): Stand Up
Day 16 (9/2/13): Fat Burner
Day 17 (9/3/13): Red Hot Core
Day 18 (9/4/13): Energy
Day 19 (9/5/13): Red Hot Core

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Meh (Day 18 of 20)

No desire to do yoga. Will do it anyway. Actually, if I hadn't said I wouldn't do Red Hot Core two days in a row on it's own I would definitely be doing that right now. As it is, I'll just be doing Energy. I'm in  bad mood. Don't really like this week and on top of it my glasses snapped in half today. So now I get to go see if I can just get a new pair of frames to match my lenses in the morning. I really need to get a new prescription and everything, but I'm paying out of pocket for everything and that pocket is very shallow. So cheap frames it is. Besides, I really can't go a day without my glasses. If I did I would just stay in bed. I know I should be happy to be able to see at all, but damn it I hate falling apart! I hope those that haven't had to wear glasses realize how lucky they are!

Now to Energy. Oh and I am not expecting to lose anything. Been eating over 2000 the past couple of days and getting lazy on the yoga. Hopefully i won't have gained.

20 Day Challenge_____________
Day 1 (8/18/13): Fat Burner
Day 2 (8/19/13): Energy
Day 3 (8/20/13): Red Hot Core (and volleyball!)
Day 4 (8/21/13): Energy
Day 5 (8/22/13): Energy + Red Hot Core (and burpees + treadmill)
Day 6 (8/23/13): Red Hot Core
Day 7 (8/24/13): Diamond Cutter + Red Hot Core
Day 8 (8/25/13): Below the Belt + Red Hot Core
Day 9 (8/26/13): Mix Tape + Red Hot Core
Day 10 (8/27/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 11 (8/28/13): Fat Burner + Red Hot Core
Day 12 (8/29/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 13 (8/30/13): Red Hot Core
Day 14 (8/31/13): Energy
Day 15 (9/1/13): Stand Up
Day 16 (9/2/13): Fat Burner
Day 17 (9/3/13): Red Hot Core
Day 18 (9/4/13): Energy

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Slackin' (Day 17 of 20)

I don't really know why, but I have left my workout until 1 a.m. I haven't tracked my calories yet either, but I shall do that after I am done with Red Hot Core. Seriously just slacked today. The thought crossed my mind when I woke up to get my yoga in early again, but for some reason I just really didn't want to. Maybe the fact that I am a little sore for some reason might have had something to do with it.

Really short post. Seriously I have no idea where the past 2 hours have gone. Just going to do Red Hot Core. Not what I had planned, but don't have a lot of energy for anything else. Ate horribly today as well. Need to get my crap together. I don't I could stand a gain on Friday!

20 Day Challenge_____________
Day 1 (8/18/13): Fat Burner
Day 2 (8/19/13): Energy
Day 3 (8/20/13): Red Hot Core (and volleyball!)
Day 4 (8/21/13): Energy
Day 5 (8/22/13): Energy + Red Hot Core (and burpees + treadmill)
Day 6 (8/23/13): Red Hot Core
Day 7 (8/24/13): Diamond Cutter + Red Hot Core
Day 8 (8/25/13): Below the Belt + Red Hot Core
Day 9 (8/26/13): Mix Tape + Red Hot Core
Day 10 (8/27/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 11 (8/28/13): Fat Burner + Red Hot Core
Day 12 (8/29/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 13 (8/30/13): Red Hot Core
Day 14 (8/31/13): Energy
Day 15 (9/1/13): Stand Up
Day 16 (9/2/13): Fat Burner
Day 17 (9/3/13): Red Hot Core

Monday, September 2, 2013

Labor Day (Day 16 of 20)

You would be so proud of me! Check it: I actually got my yoga in first thing as I got up today! Small victory for me and to be honest I am so glad I am not sitting hree right now dreading on getting up and doing it. Love getting it done earlier in the day. Makes you wonder why I don't do it more often...

We ended up not playing volleyball today. I played bean bag toss or whatever you want to call it. Apparently in Wisconsin it's called cornhole, but that always sounds perverted to me. So a little arm exercise there, but I only played two things of it, cause I sort of suck. Ate a lot at dinner. Could have eaten less, but I've eaten way more in the past so I actually feel okay about that.

Haven't calculated all the calories for today, but I'm sure I went over a bit. I'm not stressing it though. I know I've been doing better and I will do better tomorrow. Oh and for yoga I did Fatburner!

That's about it, going to make it a short one! Is anyone else feeling a lack of energy of late or is that just me?

20 Day Challenge_____________
Day 1 (8/18/13): Fat Burner
Day 2 (8/19/13): Energy
Day 3 (8/20/13): Red Hot Core (and volleyball!)
Day 4 (8/21/13): Energy
Day 5 (8/22/13): Energy + Red Hot Core (and burpees + treadmill)
Day 6 (8/23/13): Red Hot Core
Day 7 (8/24/13): Diamond Cutter + Red Hot Core
Day 8 (8/25/13): Below the Belt + Red Hot Core
Day 9 (8/26/13): Mix Tape + Red Hot Core
Day 10 (8/27/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 11 (8/28/13): Fat Burner + Red Hot Core
Day 12 (8/29/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 13 (8/30/13): Red Hot Core
Day 14 (8/31/13): Energy
Day 15 (9/1/13): Stand Up
Day 16 (9/2/13): Fat Burner

Sunday, September 1, 2013

5 till Done o'clock (Day 15 of 20)

Only five more days of my 20 day, yoga everyday challenge. I don't know what I'm going to do at the end. I mean I'm going to keep doing yoga, but I don't know if I'm going to take a break for a day or just start up again doing it everyday. Who knows? I'll decide when I get there. For now, I'm just taking it day by day.

I did Stand Up for the firs time. It's 30 minutes and I think I may love it. It went pretty quick. I mean sometimes one or two of the workouts are hard to do because the time seems to drag, but then it's probably my mood that is affecting that. It's a lot of balancing and that's right up my alley you know. I love that there is a workout that doesn't involve you getting down on the ground and going back and forth and doing a lot of the same moves from workout to workout. Best of all: no broken table! I'm not even bad at broken table, I just seem to be adverse to it. Anyway, I will definitely be doing this workout more often.

Today is also my third day back tracking my calorie intake. It's around 1330 calories, which is more reasonable than what I did the past two days. It's mostly because I didn't drink today. I am going to have a drink tomorrow given the holiday, but I am also going to be very active tomorrow playing volleyball outside in addition to my yoga workout. Getting plenty of exercise tomorrow. Trick is not to overdo anything. Going to be very sensible when eating. I hate being uncomfortable because I ate too much during a holiday meal.

Think that's about it. Hope everyone is well and getting their exercises in! We are doing this!

20 Day Challenge_____________
Day 1 (8/18/13): Fat Burner
Day 2 (8/19/13): Energy
Day 3 (8/20/13): Red Hot Core (and volleyball!)
Day 4 (8/21/13): Energy
Day 5 (8/22/13): Energy + Red Hot Core (and burpees + treadmill)
Day 6 (8/23/13): Red Hot Core
Day 7 (8/24/13): Diamond Cutter + Red Hot Core
Day 8 (8/25/13): Below the Belt + Red Hot Core
Day 9 (8/26/13): Mix Tape + Red Hot Core
Day 10 (8/27/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 11 (8/28/13): Fat Burner + Red Hot Core
Day 12 (8/29/13): Energy + Red Hot Core
Day 13 (8/30/13): Red Hot Core
Day 14 (8/31/13): Energy
Day 15 (9/1/13): Stand Up